Monday, March 1, 2010

Jesus loves the little children...

what makes for a life well spent? is it the accumlation of wealth and homes and cars... stuff? it is a 1000 people or "friends" on facebook or followers on twitter? is it defined by getting what you want, when you want it, without much inconvenience? is it being the greatest basketball player who ever lived? the smartest IT designer with the biggest company?

or is it about sacrifice, living beyond the walls of our own desires, being used for purposes bigger than ourselves... allowing God's will to permeate our selfish plans, no matter how uncomfortable we may be... loving others like Jesus even when we'd rather turn away...

could you praise God, walk faithfully, putting all your hope in His greater plan in the midst of: your marriage falling apart, getting laid off at work, not having enough money to pay the bills much less buy enough food for the week, becoming sick with no cure in sight, a rebellious teenager, a dying parent, friends that have betrayed you?

my heart's desire is to say "yes", that even through all of those situations i will still love, still trust, still praise the Lord because my life is God's not mine... i asked Him to come in and take all of me.

i know that a life well spent (in my humble opinion) is one surrendered to Christ, and no matter what comes my way, if i am walking right next to Him that regardless of what i see, i know that i am safe. i want to be a witness to His glory when i struggle with sickness, i want to shout His praise when i am betrayed, i will speak of His goodness when the money runs out....

...could i have strength in the face of one of my children dying?

i spend a lot of prayer time each day/week holding up sick children & families before the Lord pleading for healing & comfort, miracles & peace. their lives reach out to me and i am struck by the strength of these babies who need a physical miracle of healing, and i am in awe of the moms & dads & brothers & sisters who are in the midst of dealing with their babe's fight and the courage they display.

i have asked before "God, how can this be a life well spent? this sweet child is only 2 (or whatever the age of the kiddo might be, 18 for that matter) and look how they are suffering! Jesus, they can't leave yet, you just put them here.." and i know if i'm feeling that and this isn't even my babe then how much more are their parents screaming inside?! hence why i pray... because i know God hears me

"Lord i know you want our surrender and committment to follow, but this one is too young... why allow this?" , i have asked this as well...

and while i have felt like just a few years or even months on this earth are not enough for these kids, God knows and He has great, enormous purpose for the little, beautiful lives... i have been taught courage, perservance, love, compassion, patience and faith from these amazing souls, i have watched them laugh and smile in their pain, i have learned about real joy... i have grown closer to Christ through my tears as i pray for them, i have seen the Word come to life in my heart like never before simply because i chose to let these families into my heart & soul and as their sister in Christ i have walked beside them in an attempt to hold them up when they might be weak... and i have seen miracles of earthly healing and Heavenly healing and i am so grateful for this call to pray for those in need

the lives of Jaymun, Stellan, Noah, Layla, Coleman, Audrey, Abbey, Gavin, Lucas and thousands more, are beautiful & gorgeous lives that have been so blessed and annointed by the Lord, who have allowed all of us a glimpse into what a life well spent can look like. their spirit of trust and love and grace.... well i have no words to adequently describe how they have fully lived for Christ's glory!!

while i still struggle and grieve for these babes (and for many adults who are going through a trial or sickness) as some of them have left us to join their loving Jesus, i am trusting and believing God, that His glory will be revealed through their struggle...

please continue to pray for those who are fighting: Layla (she is headed home to Jesus so soon, pray for her physical comfort & peace, that she wouldn't feel pain or fear but hear the loving voice of Jesus), Abbey, Gavin.... rejoice in the miracle of healing for Stellan! and praise God for those who were healed at the gates of Heaven like Coleman , Noah, Lucas and sweet Jaymun, and pray for their families who are daily missing them...

i don't want to get to Heaven some day knowing i could have done better for Christ's sake.... i want to have lived a life well spent, giving everything i had in me, using all the resources God placed in me.... i want to be like Jesus, don't you?

Now they were bringing even infants to him that he might touch them. And when thedisciples saw it, the rebuked them. But Jesus called them to him, saying, "Let the children come to me, and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of God. Truly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it." John 18.15-17


  1. After reading a bit more here on your blog, I see that you are already familiar with my family. Thank you so much for praying for Gavin. I'll continue to pray for you as well.

    Much love,
    Stacie Smith

  2. I must seem crazy. I left my computer up with two blogs last night and came back today completely confused. Your blog -- as well as another -- was up. The other was the mother of 3 little ones that is suffering from a relapse of ovarian cancer. A blog friend asked me to pray for her. I commented on her page yesterday...then came back today (to your page, thinking it was hers for a second) to see that she (really you) had blogged about praying for children like Gavin.

    Do you see my confusion?!?! :) Clearly, I am nuts this morning. So sorry for the weirdo comment.

    BUT, I do want to thank you for lifting up my family in prayer. I believe it has made all the difference in Gavin's journey thus far.

    Much love,
    Stacie (the crazy commenter!)